~ for Shelly & Diane

It’s that time of the month again.

Today, I’m meeting up with my fabulous poetry pals at our favorite gathering place, The Mercantile, just outside a bustling new agricommunity, in the rural wonderland of central Iowa, chowing down pita chips and their amazing dip – we can never decide between the garlic herb or the Merlot so now we just get one of each.

We’ll each savor a cool drink – I love their Honey Fire cinnamon whisky concoction – as we’re doted on by Robert and / or Rick (most agreeable young fellows!) inside a renovated country schoolhouse, with its charming brick walls and ceiling beams. Prairie grasses and field flowers sway in Iowa’s ubiquitous breezes, a pleasant view outside the tall north-facing windows, snug – just the three of us – in our preferred, cozy little corner, reading and sharing each other’s poetry.

It is a marvelous way to spend one’s afternoon.

I always, always eagerly look forward to spending this time with Shelly and Diane. I’m very grateful to have been invited to join this tiny but perfect little group. We discuss poetry, of course, and family and books, gardening and cooking, travel and film. And sometimes – sadly, often angrily – the dreadful, tumultuous state of our country. It’s best though, to not spoil the mood of our little get-together so once we’ve vented our frustrations with the current regime, we quietly and simply move on to other, more optimistic passions!

Our personalities, such a fine mesh. Our poetry styles, obviously unique and quite different from one another’s. Our accumulated life’s experiences, vast and varied.

For today’s Brew, I’ve prepared two poems birthed from the pages of my daily journal, each one written in the last few weeks. This morning, I tweaked them a bit – and then a bit more. Poems are, as you may know, never quite finished.

yesterday’s rain —

soaking summer’s bedraggled flowers

replenishing tired, dry, thirsty grasses

streaking windows, gushering downspouts

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our tiny patch of earth

utters its heartfelt gratitude

two twin sisters

wearing sage-green tights

draw pink jaguars

on a broken sidewalk,

sunlight caressing

their strawberry blonde curls

Uber-fans, like me, of the 1979 classic All That Jazz will recognize those lyrics from a film that chronicles one man’s journey toward his demise. The movie is chockful of spectacular performances and never fails to fill my eyes with tears.

Yesterday, less than a month after my own mother passed away, I attended the funeral of a beloved uncle. Sitting there, during what seemed an interminable though well-intended sermon, it occurred to me that I’ve reached that stage in life where one by one, my elders and eventually my familial peers will eventually meet the same fate. As will I…

There will be more funerals, the gaps between each one and the next more slender; they will not occur as infrequently as they did even ten years ago. My mother’s remaining six sisters’ and their spouses’ bodies are in decline, some more evident than others. My husband’s family, even larger, tells the same story.

We will be attired in black, yet again, many times in the coming days, weeks, months and years. None of us know the when only that the if will never fit inside the equation. Never has.

Angelique, the Angel of Death, who troubles and endears Joe Gideon in the film, is beautiful and charismatic. Joe both adores and fears her. Not yet, he tells her at one point, and she demurs, backs away, allows him to live a bit longer.

May we all live – well and truly! – just a bit longer though one day, this same inevitability will arrive for each of us.

humidity creeps back up

soaring temps and ragweed too —

I look towards frost & drier air,

the chill of autumn’s overlay

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to breathe freely again,

to step outside,

to enjoy nature

& the wide-open outdoors